Well... I have always been an emotional kid the one who always gets emotionally involved in whatever he does.
From my childhood I was always excited about the term "Career" that everyone used; and hence I always thought my Career is going to be everything for me. In the same josh I left my home- Mumbai, and relocated to Bangalore- on 31st May 2007 to join my first company- why I chose this company over a group of other companies was because I had emotions involved with this company as it was the first one to select me.. But when I joined and began my career- I realized that what people term as career is nothing but the craze of earning more and more money! At the new city that I was in- I made many new friends- even though I was missing my home and was homesick- there was always a group of people whom I was surrounded with and hence I always felt protected. But then- coming back to the hometown, meeting parents and visiting those old memories was not possible... I had mixed emotions- was proud of new friend circle but on the other hand I was missing my family, old friends, the heavenly pleasures.. I was missing Mumbai!!!!
After about 75 days... the wheels of fortune spinned and I was transferred to Pune- the city from where my hometown Mumbai was only about 3 hours far! The entire galaxy looked small before my happiness! I was so excited to be in this place from where I could visit my family, my land, my friends and even them who are more than "just friends" every weekend! But then when I came to Pune I realized how lonely I was here! There was no one of my age and state of mind around me in office! Everyone is very elderly, experienced! And I am such a small kid- a fresher! In Bangalore- I didn't know the local language, but I knew the people and could talk to them.. In Pune- I know the language but I have no one to whom I would talk! My only friends here are my television, my cell phone and a lizard that stays in the same flat as I live into! Every Monday morning I start waiting for another Friday evening to meet my parents and my old friends.. The people who were more than "just friends".. moved on to their destinies.. I chose career- made a wrong move... but they weren't fools like me!!! Today, even they have made a great career and above all- lead great personal lives!!! But look at me- I am so lonely! No one to talk to... forget talking- I don't even have some one who can inform my family that Aditya is no more in case something happens to me!
Sometimes I think- what have I done with my life! Was it all this that I was always crazy about?? Is all this that is termed as career? Many a times I feel like crying... but then I have to cry aloud by hugging a pillow- there is no one else around! And then I have to console myself by saying "Come on Adi... you are a strong man- Life will change one day!" Hardly sometimes I feel like laughing- but then I have to laugh alone and then while laughing tears roll out- no one to celebrate my joy even!
But then... may be life will change one day and even I will have be fortunate enough to be with my family just like those special people in my life! May be I will not have the personal life as good as they have- but atleast I would be amidst the people who would cry after I die...